TO A NEW BEGINNING.

- Lang Leav

It's that time of the year again when we are unconsciously evaluating all the things that have happened in our life. A time when we are mindlessly noting all the success and failures that we've done over the past year. We have that invisible scale, calculating every moves that we did, and how it could've been done. Also, again, it's that time when we're thinking of the next big thing we've been planning to do for (hell!) we don't know how long now.

Cheers to that, I used to dread this kind of thinking, because at the back of my mind I know deep down inside of me that it's gonna be one of those years again. But, for some reason, I'm glad that I'm doing it right now. I feel like, I was given another chance to properly set things straight and to start all over again. To be honest, I'm more of proud, that I'm still here, standing straight with my shoulders back. This is one of those few times in my life, that I will probably never forget. And to all of you who haven't given up yet. I'm proud of you.

This year, I've experienced some of the most heartbreaking and daunting times of my life. Moments that I thought will take the life out of me. I've never seen myself that pathetic and desperate and lonely and sad and clueless and completely worn out like that. It was one hell of a ride. Or is it? Well I don't know, though I may sound hypocrite to you, but honestly, I'm glad that it happened.

If there's one thing that I realized after everything. It's not that it's hard, it's just that "IT'S LIFE" and I don't know how to handle it.

Now you're probably confuse why I said that. But I don't wanna go down to details since this article is for new beginnings.

Now as this year's nearly ending, I'd like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to everyone that is with me during this time of my life. I never thought that I will come to a point where I am gonna be thankful that it happened, but truly I am. And to the people whom I hurt along the way. My sincere apology. Honestly, I'm just really trying to figure out myself and I got lost along the way (or am I?, maybe it's also a part of the journey), but still I'm sorry. And lastly, to the people who hurt me, I want you to know, from the bottom of my heart, I forgive you.

• "WHEN ONE FORGIVES, TWO SOULS ARE SET FREE" - Margaret B. Moss

And as new year's about to begin, I wanna take this chance to wish you all happiness. I wish that your next years will be filled with excitement, meaning, abundance and good health.

Now cheers to us, and to a new beginning! I LOVE YOU ALL!!