HER.

I'm giving her time, she's not ready to completely leave me yet. She still comes back in the morning every time I slept late the previous night. She still nags me every time I eat unhealthy, making me hazy and confused the whole day. She still kicks me out every now and then when I don't do my morning routine and forget to breath. she's nasty.

I guess that's her being cheeky, she likes to take over, but we had a silent agreement already. That she can visit me every now and then if she wants to, but she's not allowed to stay long anymore. We accepted that she's always gonna be a part of me, and she understands that the past is where she belongs now. She knows that in order for me to move forward she had to trust me and leave me in the present. And so we come to term.

And the thing is, she knows she can't cheat on me anymore. I never knew her until recently, I told you she's nasty. She's been with me all along and I had no idea. She's like a witch, she has the power to take over my whole existence without me knowing it. She likes to waste time and way too dramatic, and she thought she knows it all, but I kinda like her being idealistic. So I'm not worried anymore, because I can see her now, as clear as I can see the clouds in the sky, unlike before when she's just a vague imagination of someone I thought.

so yeah, HER.

(* i think i should start researching what's bipolar means, LOL)